Wednesday, December 29
vero, mom and i had a lovely dinner at Paprika. they talked of many things, understanding each other. i haven't looked at my mom from the outside, as a friend vs. daughter. she is extremely cool. i know all the shadows in great detail and they do get in the way of my complete appreciation. parent child relationships are so complex, sometimes complicated. i want to make more of an effort to listen and not make it about Me. although i feel mom as a direct extension of me (and vice versa i'm sure), i plan to be more Open. i wonder if she knows who i am now, at 33. that sounds so old. leaving romania (escaping) and moving around so much can't have been easy either. mom just mentioned it a few days ago. i forget and i don't realize the magnitude of certain events i've lived through. dad's death is the only thing i Know was an epic tragedy. ----- a few good things... the x.mas cookies i baked w/ a good friend's help were a success all around. i am now addicted to baking. edible art, so relaxing yet energizing. also, tomorrow a site launches and it will be great to have it off my plate. what would sites you've worked on taste like? if they were a food, what would past projects be?
2:43 AM

Tuesday, December 21
i am addicted to baking cookies. amazing tasting looking cookies. edible art!
6:52 PM

Sunday, December 12
saw Closer. natalie portman is such a bad actress. no one shakes their head so much. i wish she had not been cast. julia was pretty mediocre too. the play is good. the title song is amazing. the stories... why do people cheat? surely pure love exists. pure, romantic love. it must happen more than i realize, people cheating, lying, not knowing how to appreciate something Great. new york city may have given me a warped impression of life. if i moved to the country, how different would things be? i think people are good and bad no matter where you go. ----- this past year has been so strange. i feel like i've been asleep for a long time. ----- i've noticed booths on the street or the subway w/ scientologists offering free stress meters. i'm tempted to take one though i know they're a cult and i'm sure everyone is told they need help. still, it would be good to measure my scars. i'm curious how much they weigh.
11:23 PM

Monday, December 6
seeing and spending time with veronica after 3 years is absolutely amazing.
10:44 PM